— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
What was that moment like for her? The moment she lit the match. Had she already tried roofs and guns and aspirins? Or was it just an inspiration?
I had an inspiration once. I woke up one morning and I knew that today I had to swallow fifty aspirin. It was my task: my job for the day. I lined them up on my desk and took them one by one, counting. But it's not the same as what she did. I could have stopped, at ten, or at thirty. And I could have done what I did do, which was go onto the street and faint. Fifty aspirin is a lot of aspirin, but going onto the street and fainting is like putting the gun back in the drawer.
She lit the match."
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
— Susanna Kaysen
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted (Faber and Faber Screenplays) Screenplay based on the book)
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
me into the suicide debate and made every window, kitchen implement, and subway station a rehearsal
for tragedy."
— Susanna Kaysen
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warm earth. Suicide weather."
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INTERPRETER ONE: Pain in the left foot, back of heel.
INTERPRETER TWO: I believe that's because the shoe is too tight.
INTERPRETER ONE: Checked that. Took off the shoe. Foot still hurts.
INTERPRETER TWO: Did you look at it?
INTERPRETER ONE: Looking. It's red.
INTERPRETER TWO: No blood?
INTERPRETER ONE: Nope.
INTERPRETER TWO: Forget about it.
INTERPRETER ONE: Okay.
Mental illness seems to be a communication problem between interpreters one and two.
An exemplary piece of confusion.
INTERPRETER ONE: There's a tiger in the corner.
INTERPRETER TWO: No, that's not a tiger- that's a bureau.
INTERPRETER ONE: It's a tiger, it's a tiger!
INTERPRETER TWO: Don't be ridiculous. Let's go look at it.
Then all the dendrites and neurons and serotonin levels and interpreters collect themselves and trot over to the corner.
If you are not crazy, the second interpreter's assertion, that this is a bureau, will be acceptable to the first interpreter. If you are crazy, the first interpreter's viewpoint, the tiger theory, will prevail.
The trouble here is that the first interpreter actually sees a tiger. The messages sent between neurons are incorrect somehow. The chemicals triggered are the wrong chemicals, or the impulses are going to the wrong connections. Apparently, this happens often, but the second interpreter jumps in to straighten things out."
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
disinclination, velocity causes the stillness of fascination. An observer can't tell if a person is silent and
still because inner life has stalled or because inner life is transfixingly busy."
— Susanna Kaysen
Baptiste in the crowd. I needed to be alone, I felt. I wanted to be going on alone to my future."
— Susanna Kaysen
It’s important to cultivate detachment. One way to do this is to practice imagining yourself dead, or in the process of dying. If there’s a window, you must imagine your body falling out the window. If there’s a knife, you must imagine the knife piercing your skin. If there’s a train coming, you must imagine your torso flattened under its wheels. These exercises are necessary to achieving the proper distance.
The debate was wearing me out. Once you've posed that question, it won't go away. I think many people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won't. Anything I thought or did was immediately drawn into the debate. Made a stupid remark—why not kill myself? Missed the bus—better put an end to it all. Even the good got in there. I liked that movie—maybe I shouldn’t kill myself.
In reality, it was only part of myself I wanted to kill: the part that wanted to kill herself, that dragged me into the suicide debate and made every window, kitchen implement, and subway station a rehearsal for tragedy."
— Susanna Kaysen
— Susanna Kaysen
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
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Disease is one of our languages. Doctors understand what disease has to say about itself. It's up to the person with the disease to understand what the disease has to say to her. "
— Susanna Kaysen
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won't.
Anything I thought or did was immediately drawn into the debate. Made a stupid remark--why not kill
myself? Missed the bus--better put an end to it all. Even the good got in there. I liked that movie--maybe
I shouldn't kill myself."
— Susanna Kaysen
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
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— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
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— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
— Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)
Lisa always called the hospital 'this place."
— Susanna Kaysen
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